now. I’ve been a little down recently, but yesterday I saw a new counselor and everything is much better. I’d been waking depressed (if that isn’t a bummer) so she recommended having a piece of nature by my bed to see when I awoke.
Great idea! So I went out and picked one of my pink dahlias. There it was when I woke up. So no depression to fight all day. And, as usual, as usual with a depression, everything else is fine. It’s amazing how that works. The depression was activated by my circumstances, having having eight adults and two children around and then watching them go. And the weather went downhill, too. Or is that my selective memory?
It’s odd how depression works. When it lands on you, your vision becomes very narrow: all you can see are things that make you depressed. Using affirmations for your stupid brain doesn’t occur to you.
I call the brain stupid because it selectively believes dumb things,such as depressing thoughts (life must be hell because I think it) and doesn’t scramble around looking for more positive thoughts: I’m wonderful no matter if everyone leaves me! (The last said in a loud voice.)
Anyway, I’m not letting the weather get me…no wait, it’s been beautiful. Who cares about that humidity?
Now I have to leave to go and do 10 minutes or more on the treadmill. Too hot for a walk. Should I water my flowers? It will rain, right? But then, if I water, it will be sure to rain. There’s a name for that thinking. Do you know it?